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Dear enter your name here,

During these two years, we've practically enveloped ourselves into an indefinite hiatus, even when we announced a "comeback" and the plans that didn't even work half the time, almost dead not yet. Alas, the silence wore on and we disintegrated insidiously. And we're no longer 15 anymore, that young band. We haven't recorded since then, and barely jammed. We tried to seek a chemistry, a time fitting to merely jam as a band and it was terribly draining. We thought that we're never gonna come back anymore.

Will you give us another chance?

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2:49 AM

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Dear Blog,
Heyy there, action prevents stagnation, a motto I should constantly keep in mind. Every minute, every second, I realise I can do countless things. And of course stay happy and do everything with love. Okayy, by the way I just completed For One More Day, that anecdote by "Chick" Benetto was awesome. A true ghost story, but a lovely one, draws back a sense of reminiscence. One lesson to cherish our loved ones, its definitely a good read for bad kids to reflect on themselves. Okayy, school is starting in a month's time. Anywayy, I've been singing at home, regularly. I don't know, it gives a sense of joy, and my brother would barge into my room "Shut up la, I'm trying to study." Hahaha. I gotta go now so yeah. Ohh ya, did I mention that I love french girls? yeahh I do. Au Revoir!

Listen to Explosions In The Sky; Song: With tired eyes, tired minds, tired souls, we slept

Note: The girl called Kezia

Note: "Stay close to my heart"

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9:33 AM

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Dear Blog,
Konichiwa! Its been a month since, I last blogged or maybe 1 1/2 months, well its clearly blatant. Apologies! So just a short summary flashback of what has been going on. I'm enrolled into Temasek Polytechnic's Business Studies! Yeahh, dream come true and I never knew that I could have gotten in. Jesus, I hafta specially thank! Cos I was praying for my second choice instead of my first. And to keep it short, I left Subway! After three months, I never knew I'll last that long. My colleagues are awesome, and the customers whether if it is Japanese kids, CJC students, Cine's staff, Caucasian businessmen, French peers, Ang Moh kids (Always ordering meatballs, no veggies, just pepper) Charlton students and German girls. I'll miss y'all dearly, it was certainly a good experience, remembering your favourite sandwiches. How it is done, and the sauce and the quantity. I left cos, I needed to find myself during the remainder of this holiday before school officially starts. And to pursue and complete some stuff. So, the Sandwich Artist has left the house. It felt as if Cine was my second home when I was working.. Btw, I love RCIA! And all of sudden I miss everyone. My friends are awesome, pool pool pool. Though my band hardly jams anymore but I happier that as friends, we're hanging out much more often. Ohh ya, and I've met this girl ^_^ okok shh. Okayy music, The Devil Wears Prada and Crystal Castles. Awesome awesome stuff, gotta listen to them. Man, I missed Saosin and FC FiVE recently. Before this I actually had alot in mind to blog, but its way too much if wrote it down. Life is good, stay happy all! Here's some pictures, George Clooney is back! Goodbye!

Its not their fight

Think happy, within all circumstances

Every child is a jewel, purity.

This song was stuck in my head during January, but its Panic!

Listen to Crystal Castles; Song: Crimewave

Note: Enemies of Khanate like pigs to slaughter!

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7:37 AM

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Dear Blog,
Hello there! Life's been pretty good i guess. :) On 24th January, O level results day, a tense day. In the hall, everyone's seemed pretty okay smiling while some had normal expressions like :| So at 2.30pm there was long announcement given by Mr Simen and Mr Yeo. Minutes passed, and at 3.30pm the results were given out. "The top student of Montfort in 2007, Sze Chuan! With 8A1s" and I went "What the fuck?". Sze chuan, the guy in my class back in Sec 2, always the one being disturbed by me "Heyy Sze Chuan! you're from China right?" yeahh, the first thing that came into my head was China cos of his name. Anywayyy congrats to him, hope that he wouldn't take anything personal.

Okayy right after that, everyone received their results individually. At that moment, I felt cold. Then it was my turn. Awesome! 12 points. I ran around like nobody's business. Halt, it was upsetting as i realised it was 16 points only. Becos they took my CCA as an subject.. Later it was back to 14 points as my CCA minus 2 points which makes my net aggregate for R4, 14 points. So I'm rather happy! :D My results slip had a pattern, so systematic. Look at this

English B3
Mathematics B3
Combined Humanities(SS/Geog) B3
Combined Science(Chem/Physics) A1
Principles Of Accounts C6
F&N C6
Chinese C6

Sweet on the topping, wow!, the great depression below. Combined humanities with a B3 was a miracle, God is real. Sorry for I've doubted Jesus the day after my Social Studies. In social studies, I left out two major SBQ questions totally blank due to time constraints. You won't believe how emotive it was in the aftermath. But B3, how did it happen? Thanks Lord. Okayy, this comes to show anything is possible and remember back in my old posts before O levels started. I panicked, and I come to realise that I panicked for a reason. But I screwed up my electives, especially POA damn. I might be retaking POA privately.

Okayy, the mentors I wanna thank. Roger&Daphne thanks for the care! Sending me out for dinner and such, giving me loads of advice. Mr James Chng for therapy, teaching me and helping me nurture in my character. And Mr Edmund James, the best English teacher ever, sorry that I couldn't score a distinction in English. Like Icelandic people would say Takk.. Thanks!

And you know how parents like to compare their children's grades, and there was this boy. Lets call him D. Cos my dad told D's mum that I was doing better than D (I was only P1 -.-) And from that day onwards. There was a stiff competition, I lost to D in my studies all the way. D's mum kept shoving it in my face, "Marcus, you're a fool. My D is so much better" Drunk words, saying it from their heart but in a harsh manner. Before O levels, D's mum bragged again "Hey Marcus, you can't make it to Poly confirm becos you'll fail your maths" My mum will start lecturing me after D's mum usual routine of bragging about D's results. Okayy then finally after years of being shot at, O levels I won D by a point for R4 and I got a B3 in maths. Hahah okayy, so really! Work hard in life, you'll definitely get the thing you've always wanted to achieve but you go for shortcuts you'll be cut short. And my cousin said "Finally, you've won that fat bastard" Hahaha. But D is my good friend, so yeah.

By the way, so much for my mum and aunt giving me freewill to choose the course I want in Poly. Influencing me in my choices, "No mass comm is hopeless in future, everyone is doing it", making me less susceptible to choose the course I want. But.. ohh well. I know they have my best interests at heart. And my relatives are happy with my results! Offering dinner treats, presents. I'm thankful cos I wasn't expecting for anything. Okok congratulations to everyone who've completed O levels. Especially Monique, who gotten 9 points for R5 and Natasha getting 14 points. Two best aggregates I know for R5 so far.

I'm watching this George Clooney movie right now, Confessions of dangerous mind. By the way, Aline Brosh is awesome at writing. Protest The Hero's new album is good. And my band is rather fine, jam! Okayy have a great 2008 everyone. Bye!

Listen to Protest The Hero; Song: Goddess Gagged

Note: Thankful

Note: 15 for R4 was all I ever hoped for, I'm utterly grateful.

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6:46 AM

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Dear Blog,

Hello! Okayy, I stayed over at Valerie's place yesterday with Jeremy, which was impromptu. So unprepared that we had to wear her CHIJ pe shorts to bed. Hahaha. Then we caught Alvin&The Chipmunks in the night. Thanks! Your hospitality is greatly appreciated. As for today, Natasha couldn't come with me to TP's Open House due to work. :( Hence, I went to TP with Serica & Jeremy, and I was only interested in business and apparel design and merchandising. So yeahh, town after that!

In the night, Coup Fatal jammed! At Rockstar Studios, which is a definite fav studio now, we went literally crazy when playing Lost Symphonies. Jl's double bass and fill ins, Mark flipped his guitar in an arc and kung fu-ed off the bass drum, Han headbanged, and I swung my bass forward. We were unprepared but it was better than the previous one. And yeah, an hour wasn't not enough cos we were writing songs as well. Oh ya, one more thing we got so carried away doing all that in studio that we failed to notice the camera in studio! Man.. Luckily we didn't come to their attention, imagined if the owners of the studio saw that. Then Jk, Lennie, Nic Goh was present then we decided to go down to Q-Bistro to chill and pool.

And I gotta stop going out everyday. Its burning a hole in my pocket, my payroll hasn't come yet until end of this month. They seized the 15th day payday thingy. Its like, when I'm in need of cash, I'm broke whereas by end of this month there'll be a major influx of cash and I don't think I really need it at that time. I spent my last pay, cos it was a festive season. I'm starting to miss school, I guess those completed O levels as well except those PAE Junior College kids. And my zeal towards Subway is starting to sour, I want to work at Borders so badly.

Cartel is utterly addictive, it has been playing on my playlist over and over again. The 2007 album, do listen to it. Will pugh's voice is amazing, an array of variations and a nice voice.

I need to have a cat. Okayy, goodbye!

Listen to Explosions In The Sky; Song: Yasmin The Light

Note: If you will believe in this

Note Stay happy, always!

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8:13 AM

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Dear Blog,
Hello!

Nobody wants to admit to this, but bad things will keep on happening. Maybe thats becos is all a chain, and a long time ago someone did the first bad thing, and so on. You know, like that game where you whisper a sentence into someone's ear, and that person whispers it to someone else, and it comes out wrong in the end.
But then again, maybe bad things happen becos its the only way we can keep remembering what good is supposed to look like.

Listen to Bless The Fall; Song: Guys like you make us look bad

Note: Adapted

Note: Sigur Ros' Heima is definitely one of the most amazing rock films ever in the history of music and film making.

Note: I've gotten Sia, Blessthefall, Mew, Asobi Seksu, Tristeza, The Devil Wears Prada and Across The Universe. Awesome stuff! Do check them out.

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8:46 AM

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Dear Blog,

Sometimes I get this uncontrollable urge that, I want to go home.

When I feel that something, I wanna hold your hand

Thanks?

Hello there, this is the continuation of the previous post on the same day itself.
About the special ones that really made 2007 awesome for me and being there for me. Roping in happiness, joy and love.

Sam Lee- Thanks pal, you've always been there for me. The friend who truly understood me. When all hopes are gone. You never judge, sticking to what's right and helping me stand up when I reached the lowest point of my life especially when it was 2007. My softball buddy, my gig going partner and friend. You were able decipher right from wrong, delusions. And you're the sexiest la. Hahaha. Thanks my friend!

Heyn (Wei Han)- Him, being my friend is definitely exquisite in a way. I can always talk to him, bitch to him and always have a cool personality. Cool as in really.. cool. Nothing can knock this guy down. He is really giving and helpful although he's the most uncontactable person ever, period. He's my guitarist, always glad to have him. Someone I can count on and trust. BeStieZx' bAbYz. And so to speak always giving me items in games! Hahaha. Thank you Mr Rockstar!

Jonathan Lim (Jayel)- I've known this guy since I was primary 2. Best friends when we were in p3. So its been 9 years since we've been friends. He is the most generous person ever and embarrassingly we both have the same interest in A1 last time in p3. And now we both have interest in Leah Dizon. Haha! Him being my drummer is greatest things to ever happen, he never fails to amaze and inspire me. He never gave up on our band Coup Fatal. Even if Mark and Heyn is late, he'd be there earliest. Waiting and now in 2007. Our friendship is built. Thanks dude!

Natasha- She is really cute, witty and smart girl which was supposedly to be intimidating instead it was attractive to me. Always liked being with her. Talking to her cheers me up alot, especially during the O levels period. She also meant alot to me. She's really nice, sensitive yet understanding. And sweet girl! (If only you were from CHIJ last time, hahaha) Also my favourite flaker, flaking on me. Hahaha. But its okay, thanks for everything in 2007. I love you.

Nic Sim- The hardcore hxc kid! Just kidding. His comments on other people is so hilarious, I enjoy how he makes fun of others. And there is no fear in this guy. Like Hatebreed. Hahah. A great friend who is always cheerful in his heart though he may look like he's not happy. He is also carefree, and cares more about his friends than his own. Like the incident when he left his guitar bag and Mp3 at the pool place, he didn't want to be late and cause any disagreements in the clique. He didn't retrieve it but in the end we convinced him to. Anyway, thanks bud!

Naomi- She is really special to me, vivacious and fun-loving. Throughout 2007, she's been there for me when I was depressed. There is always something to talk about with her. Interesting personality, and a person I trust. She is lovely in every single way. It was simply awesome in 2007. Both of us share a love for Madina Lake. She is really nice as well and never fail to make me smile. Thanks for the wonderful times.<3

Mark Long- An awesome friend, back in 2004 when we hung out alot. Always giving me money to take bus when I forget to bring my EZ link card to the Crocodile Farm at Serangoon for our IPW project. These lil things I remember. And always pushing the band, to become stronger. My guitarist, really awesome to have him. And thankful. Thanks buddy!

JK- Thanks man! Always a conferencing friend, the guy who got me hooked on comics which lead me to Catwoman, Selena Kyle. We share alot of things in common. Its hard to friends like that nowadays. He is also really generous and tries to fix the problems in cliques. And we also try to fight lust. Thanks my friend!

Matthew- This friend of mine, without a doubt, the funniest and farcical person ever! Beating Russell Peters hands down, can you imagine? Every 5 minutes, I'll laugh hysterically. The founder of the Ramlys' clique. And its save to say that he is understanding and never gets angry. And a great mediator. Thanks dude, for 2007!

Chris- A great great great great friend. He never gets angry, even if you do something bad. A great sense of humor. It was only in 2007, that we've talked alot though in the past we were in the same clique. An organiser who calls everyone up for outings. And a soccer guy, I'll always disturb him with my all time fav team, AC Milan!

Joanna Jo- Joanna, is undeniably the nicest person ever. She helps my band alot, with pins and banners. Always able to talk to her, never fails to interest me. If only she was my band manager. Gifts&such, really giving. However, we haven't gotten a chance this year cos she's been in London for 4 months in 2007. Hope you're done with MediaCorp soon! Thanks babe.

Leslie- A study partner, bassist partner in crime, Lazlo. Another awesome friend. We've been through thick and thin towards the O levels journey. Brothers in arms when we were studying, collaboration. Lets get into Mass Comm in Ngee Ann Polytechnic. Thanks for the help bro.

Noel- We both been in Softball for four years. My first new friend in Secondary one, my class, a dumb blonde. Hahaha. Good looking, hot fella but a blonde. A great pal and marvelous friend indeed. Although, all we do when we hang out in a clique is fun talk. But Noel is somehow, always gives a helping hand and both of us the only sec 1s in the Softball C Division team in 2004. It was destiny perhaps. Thank you my friend. :D

So, on New Year's eve I went for steamboat which is f-ing awesome and rad, like a laughing session. Caught the beautiful fireworks. And I spent the new year with Natasha, it was lovely, we had coffee then watched Across The Universe which was my first musical, it was not bad. Jesus Christ, Mr James Chng, Mr Edmund James, my class 4E4 and the people from my workplace Subway, my assistant manager Shalan, then my fun colleagues especially my crew leader Ebin, And Alvin, Christine, Pamela, Rosy, Jack, Serena, Midhun, Saran and Deepal. And my hot Human Resources executive, Giny. Working at Subway is f-ing awesome and fun actually, its being tiresome is not a matter anymore.

In retrospect, 2007 was one of the best years ever though the irony that there's a major amount of bad happenings and incidents for me. These special ones overrides the sadness, roping in happiness, love and joy.

Its 4am now, my eyelids are falling but I knew I hafta complete this post. Happy New Year everyone! :)

Listen to Deas Vail; Song: Follow Sound

Note: I AM THE WALRUS

Note: Happiness at last

Note: If the local music scene is going continue like that and along with that kind mindset, they'll rot in their own grave.

Note: Heima

Labels: deas vail, happiness, I am the walrus, sigur ros

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8:44 AM

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Dear Blog,

Heyy there, Happy New Year! Wow, its been a year.. amazing, 2007 was the fastest year ever to pass. Okayy, 2007 an ardous and painful year yet awesome as I've known alot of people and the most awesome people this year, it overrides how bad this year have been. Thanks, I'll speak of these lovely ones further down this post. 2007 felt fast in due to O levels, nothing but study, even having to leave behind coffee breaks, 'lepaking', my band, skating and stuff I like. What exacerbated the problem, was encountering betryal from loved ones and friends, and undeniably cruel yeah and I don't talk to them anymore so yeah. But all in all, I've forgiven them. However, I prefer to keep the wonderful people I've met this year in mind! Similar to writing bad memories on sand, and carving the good moments on a rock.

And through this year, I've learn the biggest lessons in life. There are so many things that'll not turn out your way, unpredictable, just when I thought things are already in its worst and most dreary state it'll get worse. The people fucking with my mind. One moment be it your best buddies, then do the exact opposite. Such as doing so many nice things for them and when you're 5 mins late, they'll hate you forever. Which completely robbed my carefree optimistic thinking that everyone is nice. Making me afraid to say anything that may somehow be offensive. And the journey towards O levels, was inexplicably mind blowing. Losing interest towards anything due to panic, no television show that can interest you or even a gorgeous nude chick giving you a lap dance. Hahaha, I was panicking cos I was afraid that I'll panic during English paper 1. So many things that happened, I can't remember. Maybe its a good thing.

However, it was only through that struggle, I've learned all my imperfections and shortcomings. Realised how impertinent I was a person though I thought I was mature and a good person. And it actually takes a lifetime to be a good person. Through all this, it also gave me the sense of love. The love from my family, loved ones and friends. Again, my mum and aunt who both used to be heavily harsh on me. "Study study, you better study, if you don't get grades you'll get it" and my mum went "Its okay Marcus, whatever happens you'll always have me. Nobody can say anything about you or discourage you about your results. I don't care about your results." Wow, imagine how i felt. I've learned that the Lord was doing all this to teach me crucial points in life. And thank you! Yeah, going through utmost pain and suffering only then we'll see life clearly. How much the Lord loves us actually. Okayy now I sound like those protestant Christians. I've learned that don't indulge in this life itself as, life is only a test, one of the ways to happiness is doing good. Sinning is just a short term illusion of happiness.

In 2007, there was this girl whom I trusted, had a little thing for. But turns out to be the weirdest and betraying person. And I broke down after what she did. Two faced, in the first place she shouldn't have told me how much she hated that particular person but then love him? I didn't mind but telling on me, when she was the one who said in the first place? It was terrible but why? And after that I overheard from people(I ain't gonna disclose) that she's a cheap slut. Anyway if you're reading this. Thank you for betraying me, ripping my hope dangling a string apart. I'm not sarcastic. It taught a major lesson in my life. A stumbling block that gave me a view on how cruel people can be, even a person you really trust. And I've totally forgiven you for what you've done. But I'll never trust you again, I'm sorry. Thats why I haven't been talking to you ever since that incident. I hope you're fine now! And have a great 2008.

Life is also balanced out. Everything is balanced. Perfect in its nature. Famous people aren't the happiest people, pretty people vice versa. Pretty people risks having to be raped, while famous people can't have peaceful lives. So think again, before ranting. There is no such thing as luckiness. It is the way the person think. And like last year's post. Thinking about how mature I am, now I realise how weak I am personally.

In 2007, I've met the greatest people that played an important role in my life throughout 2007. And yeah, now they're so important to me. A part of me. Thank y'all! I'll elaborate about my friends and loved ones in the next post. Cos they all should be noted, and they mean alot to me.

Listen to Comeback Kid; Song: Wake The Dead

Note: Abstain from the seven sins, also another path to happiness.

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6:31 AM